Yes, the library again.

I always forget that I use this as a communication tool, and you use this as a 'voyeuristic' endeavor. This is a way for you to check in, and for me to still feel isolated. Oh well, what to do?

I feel great about how things have really turned around for me the last four weeks. I feel so relaxed, and in control of the daily stuff. I am even going out this Friday for beers, again!! Crazy. It will be fun to get out and have a couple with the guys. I also am having the gang over on the 27th for food, fun and games (and beer, wasn't sure if that was fun OR games).

I quit the movie theater this weekend, and will be working at a small sporting goods store until some time in May. Again this weekend I had some friendly ladies say sweet things to me. One made a comment about my eyes, and the other just had to have a look - so I just looked at her. Yup, I guess I just have some amazing blue eyes and am pretty sure I will get over it as well. I need to stop this PT job thing. Here is to having one job, unless you really want to have a PT gig. I am unable to have facial hair at the new job, don't ask, so I shaved this weekend. I found a way to get the kiddos attention. I had to laugh at all of the comments, let us just say they have NO filter. Glad I have over come the whole self esteem issue. The beard was getting a little nutty.

I had a long weekend just now, and was able to not relax at all - I worked 33ish hours over my time off. I think I need someone in my life to make me stop acting like this.....for that or other reasons. I also got to be a Valentine, which was kid of nice. Time is short not to have fun. I also got my chocolates that I had been waiting for on Friday - OMG!!! These things are amazing. I am going to send them out to the Valentine next week I think, that should make her feel better. I might get more for myself, that would make me feel better.

I have started working on the thesis again. I am feeling pretty good about that as well. I am just full of good feelings these days. I also have a couple things starting to simmer, love to have things on the back burners.

Please say a prayer for my friend's child this night, for they do not know what is wrong. There have been many tests, and many doctors. Also for a friend that is traveling back to MN from a kind of life hiatus, if they could only last a little longer.

I thank you for the thoughts, and prayers since I have been out in this wilderness. God has been doing some amazing things in, and around me. With that, another poem....

This Bridge

This bridge will only take you halfway there
To those mysterious lands you long to see:
Through gypsy camps and swirling Arab fairs
And moonlit woods where unicorns run free.
So come and walk awhile with me and share
The twisting trails and wondrous worlds I've known.
But this bridge will only take you halfway there -
The last few steps you'll have to take alone.